Beautiful Crazy Mess

Did you get caught up in the beautiful crazy mess that is life this week? It seems never ending doesn't it; the hours you put in, the worries that you have, we get caught up in a world that doesn't seem to exist for others, and only exists for others. We bitch, we moan, we complain, to a point that it seems it is all one huge bitch fest and its a weird competition of who has the most work, who has the most drama....who has the worst life. The reason behind all of this, is becasue I think we all want someone to just stop and listen....especially if they are not from "our world." Isn't it a bit ridiculous? Of course it is....some problems are meant to be heard, but some aren't. But then again it comes down to personal perspective as well....I think for Lent (as it quickly approaches) I'm going to give up complaining and try to empathise more with people....that and give up cursing...lately I've been having a mouth like a sailor at sea....
More so than ever, I feel at a distance from everything....classes, reading, and rotations are in full force, and I've been hitting the ground running since day one two weeks ago. I think that's why (when I can) I enjoy every single second that I spend with people outside of the class room setting...Yes, sitting in the library late night with no one to talk to at times is lonely and boring, but I tend to think what I'm gaining, instead of losing. The other day after clincial (it seems to becomming a habit of mine) I walk over to St.Josephs and pray in front of the statue of Our Lady...I promised Her and Chirst that I would give what ever it takes to become a good nurse for the sick and the poor, even if thta means giving up time with friends or even giving up friendship...I don't expect anything out of this in return, except the Grace of Jesus in the moments of doubt, insecurity, loneliess, fear, and inadequacy....I can drift from Grace, but somehow and usually in the unexpected moments I always return... Life is messy, but it's a crazy, beautiful one at that...