Frustations and Turst

Thanksgiving Break can not come soon enough...I think everyone on campus is pretty much in agreement...I think if I took a poll, pretty much everyone would be equal in someway or another by saying they are frustrated...and its the truth, whether it be a roomie issue, to a class issue, or just that fact that you might be sick of PSB and Erie, and you just want to high tail it out of here for awhile...it doesn't matter, everyone is frustrated in some way or another, including myself.
My Turst "Issues"
Apparently I have a bit of a turst issue...its nothing serious I guess, but then again....I totally get flustered over school work....to a point that its a bit obsessive....I practically flipped out last Monday, becasue it was quiz on top of test that I hadn't really studied alot for yet, I didn't feel prepared for either, and I hate that feeling...plus combine that with the issue of trying to work out an insurance claim for an accident that involved two of your really good friends and yourself, but hey you weren't driving, your best guy friend was...so it was like who does what...ect. plus mix in a trip to the ER becasue your other friend got whiplash.... all followed by a night at clinical with a dictator of a patient, with a phone call from your dad telling you that you are grounded...wtf...I'm 112 miles away from Pittsburgh...how can I be grounded?! The tears and cuss words soon followed...I was mad, I was sad, I was worried...it was a huge emotional blender...so I ended up venting over a pint of Ben and Jerry's with a friend, who basically said: Where's your trust at Mary? He was right...I lost of all it or a good bit of it in the mess up emotional smoothie that was going on...Where was my trust...it certainly wasn't in myself and it certainly wasn't in Jesus either, which is even more of a dissapointment than not being prepared for a test or a quiz...Continuing to down my Chunky Monkey, my friend pointed out: "Yeah, what's going on right now sucks...okay it sucks alot, but it will work out...God loves you, you're family loves you, even though it may not seem like it, and I love you...so just Turst that it will work out." And everything did work out...alot better than I ever thought possible. I think sometimes we get so caught up in our own drama, that we don't see the larger picture in front of us...Myself, I get lost in nursing world the majority of the time,and it's hard comming back from a challenging day/night at clinical, just wanting to talk to someone that actually might give two craps, that isn't on the floor with you....I can't expect those who aren't there to fully understand and I think that's why I get kind of ticked sometimes, especially on Monday nights....that's always the roughest transition....And it's okay to want that, but I know that everytime I have a rough night, I don't have to have an emotional meltdown, and I don't expect said friend to fix the "problems" in my life, our friendship isn't based on that, and I don't cling to him for just some kind words...it's deeper than that....our friendship is built on Turst, as is everyone of my friendships and my Trust always begins with Chirst, so He is at the center of my relationships and in the center of my life....
Hearts, hugs, n' Trust my friends....