The Seconds

I'm just going to come out and say it...its a freaking fantastic busy week. Its a week of seconds I suppose...
Lets start out with my favorite second in my life: my second home. In case you had any doubts my second home is infact the John M. Lilley Library, which is down hill from our tiny little apartment. I practically should donate money to it after I graduate, so they can name a shelf after me or something. I love the library, especially on days like today, when fall has finally arrived, and its grey, cloudy, and everything around you is completley saturated. As I slipped on my funky rain boots, well loved leather bomber jacket, and purchased my morning coffee today pre-Microbio lecture/lab, I took a whiff of that moist, dreary Erie air, and couldn't wait to visit my other home today. Go ahead and say it, I know you want to: NERD. Laugh if you must, I actually let out a chuckle or two, but there's something about fall in Erie and when it rains, the library is so warm and cozy. It's one of those rare moments where I actually can practically sit still for eight hours in one of those tall chairs and not break out every 5 minutes for a healthy dinner from the vending machine or call a friend on the phone, becasue I can't stand looking at another discription of some body organ or reading about the joys of bacteria. I get lost in the moment or rather my inner library world of studying and trying to comprhend meds, and various ways to take care of sick people. Secretly I LOVE every moment of it.
Yes it is one of those weeks where it's late nights and early mornings....I have abandoned my bed in exchange for the comfy couch in our living room. My fave blanket and pillow are sitting there and I greatly beckon the call at 3 in the morning, when I have to take a power nap or at the very least just close my eyes for a few brief moments to utter a prayer or two, which ends up leading to a somewhat deep sleep.
I'm never where I'm supposed to be I guess. Eating dinner in the apartement? Nope, you can probably catch me eating my packed dinner in the lib. Sleeping in me and Shannon's room? Nope check the living room. It's crazy, and stressful, but I don't mind. That's the thing I think I'm comming to realize. Sometimes you have to sacrafice the firsts in your life, maybe not completley, but at times in order to do what you want. Seconds may be in your life alot it seems, I'm sure you can think of some of your own. But when we live in these moments of late nights, skipped dinners, early mornings...there's a certain peace about it. You can feel a tug in your soul that screams HEY IM LIVING AND LOVING MY FREAKING LIFE! And even though in these second best moments, we may feel sadness because we're sacrificing a thing or two, somehow in the end, we catch a glimpse, even if it is just for a few breif moments that what we gave up, turned out in our favor, even if at first we didn't think it did. Okay...so back to the living room I go....
Hearts, hugs, n' prayers for ever kids....